well here we are another Christmas without you another year gone by without you I know its been almost 8 years since you passed but it still hurts it still feels so empty without you I know your in a better place than this cruel world we are living in but nothing is the same without you my 20th birthday won't be the same as others because it will be missing you the day I get married the day I have my first child all without you and it hurts I hate not being able to see your face not being able to hug you or to tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me I think about you everyday most days I make it through but the days when I need you the most are hard I just wanna hear you voice again feel you touch and see see that smile I need my best friend back I need you back in my life that's all I want for Christmas is my grandfather back. I love you so much paw paw I always have and always will I will see you again one day ima make sure of it no matter how much I got to pray and ask for forgiveness the day i walk through those gates and see your face will be the day i become whole again.