you know they say it will get better and i know your in a better place your not in pain anymore but ever since you passed i have been in pain you was my best friend you was the closet thing i ever had to a father you was always by my side and i know you still are but i need you hear to talk to so you can tell me what to do i need you i feel like nothing without you i lost my other half when i lost you i just don't know what to do anymore i just wish i could see your proud face when i walk across that stage in may see you standing there smiling at me clapping waiting for me to be finished so you could hug me and tell me how proud you are of me i wish you could be here for my 21st birthday i know you will but i wanna see your face when i become a man. i love you so much and miss you even more until i see you again my friend.