Well pawpaw I made it like I promised it was hard very hard but I made it I never gave up but I didn’t do it for me I did it for u I did it cuss I promised u I would I do but I didn’t do it on my own I had the help of our family. Pawpaw I’m trying my hardest to be the man Ik u would want me to be but sometimes it’s hard cuss there are so many road blocks in my way and sometimes I feel like I’m facing them alone sometimes I think about u a lot sometimes I just wanna give up and come be with u or want u hear with us I just wanna be with u be able to hug u tell u how much I love u how much I need u how much u have helped me work on a car with u watch tv wit u again just see u smile cuss ur having fun I wanna be able to take drives with u and sing along to the radio. When my dad left me mom and angel u was the closet thing I had to a father u was my whole heart u was my world I miss u coming to get me at school I miss laying with u watching tv. Nothing is the same without u graduating will be hard without u there life is hard without u I need my best friend back I need my grandfather back I need u in this life I can’t do it without u it’s so hard and I miss u so much I feel so broken without u I feel so lost idk what to do there is so much I wanna ask u about my life cuss idk the answers u was the only person I could go to for help the only person I could really talk to without being judged or without being yelled at I can’t wait to see u again to hug u and tell u I love u and tell u everything that happened in my life I wish u could come to me in my dreams or in person so I could hear ur voice one more time it’s been so long I can’t take the pain anymore I need u I will be writing to u again next month right after graduation I love u pawpaw so much.